Life: 14 October 2008's Note

Hi everyone, I was clearing up my flash drive today, sorting files out and I came across this document. When I opened it, I remembered, yes, it was something that I wrote when I was bored, I didn't know why I wrote anyway,lol. I think I was trying to give hints to my mates or someone, show off a bit of writing I guess but that was not my attention, obviously. Here is a share for you to see, a piece of writing I did, 14 Oct 2008, wow, it was so long ago, isn't?

" There was a certainty in my mind that I always get caught in the middle,right in the middle of everything in my life. Lining up my life’s experience with couple of bumps and rough edges, I found myself in this hilarious state of mind. I will laugh at myself for the silly things that I cried over or being upset for the sake of getting sympathy when no one doesn’t even know that I was feeling upset, all because I crept up in my room where no one was around that I showed my true state. Over tons and tons of book I read, I fell to various categories of person-type, emotional-type and there was no surprise that all had a link, one way or another. What exactly was the link one might ask? I said, it’s the sacrifices that I have made to give it all and didn’t expect anything in return for the expectation will only yield the longing of acceptance and approve by what was known as people I cared and loved. If there was one thing that kept me going was my fascination of keeping myself connected to a social network whether I find myself to have the same interest or not. This was yet another useless thinking, one of the self help book claimed it was a good tactic, ”self-reflection” , a healing process of understanding oneself, but come on, it was like digging a hole for me,only that it was deeper than the ones I got myself into.Can this be any other harder than it already had been? Now, life at the moment is about enjoying the ride. If there is a crash along the way, pick up the broken pieces and move on. "